jealousy....driving me apart
Tuesday, February 28 ♥
how i wish the werd n the feeling "jealous" nvr exist in once life??its driving me insane.the werd n feeling is driving me n my best fren apart.today in sch sort of suck.i dun noe why i cried when i think bout my ex n my fren together.i guess i still syg "him'.Its not incredible hulk btw.den after sch,theres Geography remedial-one of the sub in sch dat i adore the most.ish!!how cum i can chill out at ncc room wif the pds guys?!wad da hell was i thinking?its lyk so freaking obvious dat if i go there,i can see him....DUH~a smack on my forehead will wake me up...bustard sia fahmy he was playing the "I am a jackass" game wif the pds then he asked one of the cadet to go inside the bin sia.Pity dat guy sia.wad kind of game is dat.so not the logic seh.den i had a lil talk wid incredible hulk at the garden.i can hardly hear him cos inside the T.L.,they are watching movie.the best n unsual part was when EHEM came down frm his takraw training, incredible hulk said"u,naz kat saner".so i look lah.i look at naz...when i look at incredible hulk face again,hes face is lyk so the jealous sia.In the first place why incredible hulk told me naz was there?if incredible hulk noes dat i lyk naz n incredible hulk luvs me,why he tell me naz was there?stewpid ryt?Yesza i pass my chem!!!alah aisah pass chem also...same mark sumore!!!hmm...lyk very weird sia,everything we bet on ryt,we end up having the same marks.haiz...but i dare uh to eat those cherry tomatoes!!!bring it on aisah!!
eh aisah pls lah dun reach school after me can or not?second day in a row seh ure almost late fer school.ure a prefect fer goodness sake.u told me not to take my own sweet tym to sch,but ure alwasy late fer school....haiz!!!!dun make it a habit.i heard rumors dat i spent more money on my fren then i spent on my best fren...is dat true?where the hell did they get the source frm?One sentence fer them~'f*** you man.u dunnoe anything den just shut ur f****** mouth up lah...y?you guys jealous is it dat i didnt treat u guys?Idiot sia'
Stupid decisions
Sunday, February 26 ♥
slowly....i can see the whole world came crushing down on me...how could it be?its lyk suddenly without warning the problem hit me hard ryt in the head.Everytym when i think bout it,ill have negative thoughts.One question leads to another question.Why she do this to me?why shes acting all weird out of the blue?why she left me thinking wad happen next?wad sins have i done to her to make me feel dis way?and when dis thoughts n questions came to mind,ill have the habit to look out of the window n stare as far as my eyes could bring me or leave a scar or two on my hand.I hate it when people leave me thinking neagative thoughts.i guess u guys luv making my lyf miserable huh?i guess its not me whose driving me myself insane,its her! why am i feeling insecure suddenly? well...i guess shes ryt,nutng last forever. dis whole thing is making me nuts.when dis whole thing makes me nuts,ill have a very bad migraine.And when i have one,i feel lyk chopping my head off.so wads the point fer me to live in this cold hard world?im better off dead ryt?i guess no one cares when im dead....
people are brainy when cums to study and inventing new stuff.they always cum up wif cool n wonderful inventions which can change the world n make the world a better place.but when cums to relationship,they are number one frm the bottom.they make stewpid decisions without thining bout their partner.all they think is bout themselves.thery stingy when cums to relationship...i guess im one of them....yeah im stewpid when cums to RELATIONSHIP N FRENSHIP!!!Im always hurting her n make her suffer.im such a bad fren...lyk i said im stewpid...get it?im the kind of fren u wouldnt even wanna noe or hear about.
♥
"Far Away"
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left'
Cause you know,you know, you know
[CHORUS]
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees,
I'll askLast chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,you know, you know
[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wantedI
wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
"hi syg.blh kenal2?"
Saturday, February 25 ♥
yay!!!i`m done wif my blog...so happy...im so freaking happy today.Just now ncc, ma`am came late.she came arnd 7.40.she told us to meet her at 7.00.how cool can dat be?while waiting fer her,i tell ghost stories to the jrs.after the running,eat breakfast wif my part Cs.den lepak at sakinah`s place there.fun sia lepak wif my Part Cs.we lepak at the playground lyk "anak terbiar" lyk dat...its lyk as if we own the playground.eat non stop.today i ate lots of junk food.i guess im happy.dats why...Went to Zaki`s place fer awhile den i went out again wif rose to do my specs...happy sia.haiz...den go mcdees.blanjer her big mac!!!hahah.its been along tym since we had a lil talk huh rose?miss those weird crazy tyms...she laugh alot seh.If only everyday is lyk today.everythings so fine!!he msged me again!!!yihah!!"u ngah buat aper?"happy giler seh atiqah.today he went out fer his soccer practice den went out again fer his soccer thingy wif his frens.he told me dat hes gg to westcoast wif his family...bbq.cute seh.aper jer...itu pon cute ker?yeah2 my darling dah leh msg....disturb me only ehk..."hi syg!blh kenal2?"the first thing came to my mind was "hu the hell left my number in public place?????!!!!"dah sah takde kejer nie bdk...i luv today!!!but...nothing last forever atiqah...
Incrediblur hulk
Thursday, February 23 ♥
We break up!!finally!!Im sorry boy.I cant love you lyk u loved me.im not the Atiqah you used to noe on the 19th FEBUARY 2006.Im no longer the gal u can call "SAYANG"i dun luv u anymore.But i luv *him*.Your fren!Your Classmate.You knew it in the first place.But still,u told me that u love me.Do u have to make me feel this way?U said we`re not compatible.U said dat ure not a desperate guy,but u leave the word "PLEASE" at the end of every msg...If u`re nt desperate,then y u wanna patch up?you sound so desperate...
How can i avoid him in school?every where i go i see him.especially after remedial just now.i was very happy.Then when i saw him,i tried to walk away but my heart tells me to just carry on walking lyk i didnt saw him.How can i not saw him?hes so big lyk dat.lyk INCREDIBLUR HULK!!When he stares at me,he`ll nvr let go of me.so scary sia.he even ask help frm Aisah.that shows hes freaking desperate.why u still wanna patch?cant u see the sign dat i dun "lyk" u anymore?pls lah stop it.i just dun luv u no more.stop bugging me!
NUR ATIQAH BINTE MANSOR HATES YOU!!!
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