Tuesday, March 31 ♥
okay. im so in love with this song. love banget.
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It`s Rayan's birthday. Happy birthday! i'll get for u more Man. Utd's stuff okay? Can't wait for later. Since u have the bag, the soccer kit n the jacket, im gonna get u a ... aper eh?
Nothing much happen yesterday and today so far.
Gave some ideas for adik`s letter of complaint and sesungguhnyer my english dah terok sikit. hehs. a year away from the textbook. Nvm. next week.
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What? next week im starting school. Brr.. nervous.
Last night aunt el asked me out this friday with uncle wan's family n unlce remy's family. Mamam dim sum. hehes. Okay! Maybe after that i can uplaod some pix. Geram seh i didin't bring my USB wire along.
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Dear mr azri.. Your galah, i miss them lots. both your gals. I just love pinching their cheeks! baby fats. hurhurhur. No offence eh gals. bluek! later2 u can pinch mine kaies?
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I wanna change my skin and let other knows what im listening to... But i don't want her to know. Only her. Steal my personality and whatever i loike! EEE. geramgeramgeram. My fav color, my fav brand, my fav sentence which i just love using it. She was never like this. Hmph! Benci! go do some sould searching lurhs!
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I couldn't find the song that i want! Okay fine. i settle with this song then. haiyah.
Sunday, March 29 ♥
Wee! semalam... the bengkel was super fun larh sey!
Oky2 we reached there around 9 since it started at 9. Well, in the room we waited for like an hour before it starts. just becos of a technical failure. Boohoo. Jasmani Basri was there. and some other actors and script writer were there too! The exercise was like *toot* cos we had to jump and jog on the spot. My t shirt ternaik2 sey. * showing my binget face* it was okay lurhs. I made 3 close friends. Q,Kyra and rahil. Fun!
The second half of the workshop was way better! We act. i partner up with CT sarah n Rahil. Then after that they talked about radio pementasan. Kyra n i, we were recommended to work as radio pementasan. like those on Warna. Where they have this so called "drama" through the radio.And we used our voices to act out. We did give it a try infront of live audience. It ain't that easy. Full of emotion. I made kyra cried. The script they gave us made me do so. Korang nak tahu who i saw? I saw mr.Jamil! my Design teacher. But what suprised me the most, he`s involved in lots of bangsawan. Infact, maybe longer than when he`s in YI. Not only that, he`s a script writer for most of the bangsawan! why he didnt tell me earlier?? I thought he was only invovled in our school malay dance.
Maybe i might consider taking up the job that Q recommended at HSBC. Part time jer. the pay is way btter than my previous job. But school... hmms...
I can't wait for the pementasan in 2 months! Hopefully they call us up! Ouh gosh. it will be fun!
Rahil's backgound fascinates me. Her dad`s side is from indonesia. Her grandma's a chinese. Rahil has this arab-mat salleh look. But when she talks, she has this Indon accent. Best kans? When i saw her for the first time, I thought she`s gonna be "sombong" and communicate with us in english. But guess what, she talked in malay and her mly is way better than mine! geram sey! hehe.
what`s wrong with my eng in this posting? lazy to edit. hurhurhur.
Lats night i went to bed around 11.15. Aunt el and i sang to whatever song i have in my phone before dozing off. We sang takdir cinta, Bukan aku tak cinta, dik, always be my baby, hanya ingin kau tahu, matahariku etc. Okay when we sang matahari ku, i didnt sing that much. I cant sing that song. susah sey. But i love her voice! The last song we sang was terlalu istimewa. kteorg ktawe2. ader uh. i thought we were about to sleep. but obviously tak. we continued talking about the bengkel. Puas hati!
And speaking of malay dance, if only i was not kicked out from my primary school`s mly dance,most probably im still active in the dance scene. brr... abang khairul ah nie!Pasal diarrhoea sey. hmm.. tak suker uh Cikgu Osman!
Friday, March 27 ♥ ♥
hehe! Up up and away. Blogging away. hehe.
Nuts.
btw, hafiz is still in Malacca. Zaki is in school for his cca. Dayah is in school and bi is with me right now. Playing with his PSP. May the force be with you, okies?
Uncle yan just called. bored.
ari tu nyer ari tu, i just got back from somewhere. I was not wearing my glasses. Then there`s group of guys playing takraw. I was like okay. wow! takraw. Then the ball went out of the court into my way. T he guy who took the ball was like " eh,atiqah!" mcm terkejot n happy nyer tegor. Seriously with my potek eyes, i was like saper nie? but obviously i didnt say it. layan kan jer lah. i said hi back. he was clad in his socccer shorts only. Until now, im still wondering who the hell was that guy sey. hmm...
Jap hp ader mxg...
Bacen masok hospital lagi. HAIZ. Dier dah memang kat hospital.
"Tidak kesampaian..cinta kita..." saper nyanyi lagu nie? wahts the tittle of the song?
Mommmy, i miss you so much. Its been a week sincei last saw my family. I miss mommy the most. Nak nangis. For real. damn. whats wrog wtih me? why am i saying all these?
adik, tiber2 sey i miss you. hehe.
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Dier reply larhs!! Hehe. best! you're welcome!!! hehe. Tapi dier tak handsome. I just find him kelakar jer. Asal kan he came from a school which i adore the most. hehes. Tak paham sudah.
Tadi kecoh sey kat rumah. Just becos of a packet of drink. Haish. Adik should know why. Can't be bothered to type it out here. really. Geram but guilty. get the gist?
Then just now Uncle Jamal gave me some tips about schools and stuff. Atleast now, he gave me a clear view of what i want. Like duh! he studied architecture, law, engineering sumer. Then he told me finally he got what he want. Then he talked to me about "kawan" paham? Thanks for the advice, unsle jamal.
After this im off to uncle yan`s house. I have this stupid idk what you call enrichment or whatever shit to be an inspiring artist at Woodlands with Aunty el. I was so stupid i agreed to go. terckp sey. Klu back out, confirm kene marah kan? Just go lorx. I guess she paid for me the class. Although i once dream of becoming an artist. Mepek kan? hehe. Dulu berangan of becoming a TV star! mepek sey dream! hehe. Malu sey. Okay2 enuff said ehk. dah dah.
I slept almost 2 and i woke up almost 5. It felt as if i had only an hour of sleep. it waas so fast. i was like " eh dah pukul 5?" Cepat sey.
I was in the kitchen just now with nenek. She was doing herr cooking. Then i asked about tomorrow`s "programme" and she told me everything from a-z.
"Besok pagi, nenek gi exercise. Lepas tu nenek ader jemputan. dah gi jemputan, nenek balik, papa khamis amek nenek bawak gi rumah papakhamis. Papa khamis nak bwk nenek gi johore. Hari minggu nenek balik. Lepas tu mungkin nenek nak gi rumah kawan belajar nenek. dah lamer tak jumper." A-z kan nenek ku bilang. well, atleast i know that shes not gonna be home. hehe *smilling away pathetically*
I really must cherish nenek. Yesterday she brought home for me my ever favourite Air Bandung from Masjid Ba'alwie! the taste hasn't change. That`s for sure. hehe. best!
I don't know whats wrong with me. I mumbled when i talk. then I omit my words. Even my manager said so. hehe. dah2 cukup.
dah lah tak tau nak blog aper agi. Hungry. dah 12.43pm. eh bacen, jap. Im talking to dik on the phone. I forget that today is Friday. brr...
Thursday, March 26 ♥
Okay2! Korangs! Ade org tu yer2 jer nak kluar! hehes. Good! don't do it this month. Next month jer tau. Before 6th apr pls. :] If only i could show you my patethic smile. hehes.
What`s my motive updating my blog again? read it :
People tend to take things for granted.. You and i. I admit. I do take things for granted sometimes. In fact almost everyday i take things for granted. But at the end of the day, it was me who suffer. I don't mind doing it everyday. Becausse im the one who face the music. However, when it comes to taking other`s feelings for granted just becos u thought they don't give a damn about u, u ought to do something about it. Don't jump to conclusion.
Feelings-It`s vunerable. It`s hard to forgive and foget. True isn't it? Since you know, why did you still do it? Do you like others doing the same thing to you? Don't wait till you lose that someone forever, that`s the only time you wish you could turn back time.
Apparently, i lost many people in my life. The ones i loved. It`s either becos i listen to others or i just dont appreciate them. In a sense that sometimes they are just not as important as others. After losing them, i vowed to myself to learn to appreciate the slightest gesture or feeling from someone or a friend. I even learn to love and apprecaite them even if they treat me like crap at times. Thats what actually happened. I just have to live life as usual. What can i do about it? Accept it. But when i accept them, they... Till it hurts.
Why must u make me jealous over and over again??? i hate you for doing that. If i made you jealous, u mad at me. Compromise,can? I stop saying things that make you jealous and vice versa. Sigh. I just dont understand you sometimes, xxx. Dah lah.
I just love that cute song. Hurhur.
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Boleh tak klu i name my daughter Sumayyah? And my son Hamzah? I Looove it!
haha. i talk as if Im married. No im not. Just suggestion. i seriously love the name Sumayyah and Hamzah. The meaning to the name made me love it. Sumayyah reminds me of Mrs. Zaki`s daughter. Hamzah reminds me of HAMZAH. Duh! and the meaning lah of cos! Actually its more to meaning than that guy.
mak cik kepo. kekek-ness! "Luar pki ketat2. Dalam longgar. " Mak cik pki bling2. Hehe. Hot!
Okay. the alim Atiqah is back! hehehs. I listened to nasyid today! the whole day. excluding the moment i squeezed my brain juice out just to find a song for my blog. itu part tak ehk. Nurul iman, sumayyah, balqis, Damba kasih, Suwarul quran, Nur kasih. etc. hehe. best!
dah stp it
p/s i miss him,adik and *you
*you-random someone
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Aslkm sumer!
Changed my bloggie skin. Finally! Cari ilham.
Uncle Jamal talked to me last night. About my school and Nazrin. Hmm. Thanks for the useful advice! Whatever he says, make sense. Like of course.
Went to Hospital. Visited Galah`s dad. Get well soon. No comment the state Mr. Azri in. Pity him and kan ku sampai kan doa untuk mu is all i could say to Mr. Azri. Korang, take care of him aite?
actually, there aint much to update.
Hmm! Nurul, zack and cody, Zack`s cuter aite? face it!
Most probably, hafiz is having fun in Melaka right now with his batch mates. Please, no more takraw balls. and do come back in one piece can dear? And don't come back with only a small box of dodol like what kiki did. 9 people living in the house. But one small box of dodol. taik hidung masin. hehe. jkjk. thoughtful enough.
Why should i listen to you? I hought you told me you will never fall in love with someone else? But it seems you just did. With the same person you used to hate. Hate that i love you so. Whats this?
Guilty conscience pricks the mind.
No no im not in love. really. Not now.
okay found the perfect song for my blog.
In fact, a perfect one for me. Klu tak suke, mute it okay??? this is called power metal. paham?
Zaki kalau dgr, for sure he wil go " astaghfirullah!" hehe. thats my kind of music, zaki.
re edit : Adik! MMMMMWWWWWAAAAHHHH!!! kekek ah her kiss. anyways its cute. last nite`s call was a sad one cos kene marah. We talked just now morning. She was expecting yesterday`s call to be the day before yesterday`s call. get the gist? nvm. i was like why? she was refering to the kiss. kekek sey. eee geram tau dgn ini anak kadang2.
Monday, March 23 ♥
Okay i just can't stop laughing and smilling to myself. i was reading my last 3 years post.
"DAH... TAK YAH AMEK EXAM "Guess who love saying this line to me? HAZWAN. This is the first sentence he said to me. "Thank eww" to enal. I remembered that arrogant face whenever he said it to me. beh senyum. i adore his smiles. *heart melts* Then i remember he teman me home eventhough his gal is infront. In the first place, i didnt ask him to. He just came up to me and walk beside me. hehe. urgh.
Then postings about my ex besty. i read and those memory came back to me. Itwas so vivid like it happened only last month those fun days. Memories. We have bad habit of ... infront of each other. Sungguh burok. even in public. tak boleh ckp uh. malu deh. it`s seriously burok. as burok as burpin out loud.
Then about bulan. Ex besty's sister. Not much to comment but as fas as i knew we quarelled more than you ever know. hehe. Imiss her crap sometimes. and when she bullies her sister. Best! Suke tgk org kene bully.
Way back then my english was way better. For real. I was like " did i ever use that sentence?" Must buck up in my english. Read more newspaper and watch more craps on tv. n read my beloved dict when im bored.
uuuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhh... *sighs* *eyes rolling* dayah... kakak tiqah!!!i miss you..okay i miss you too dayah.
re edit : Finally i get to his read blog. Kelakar. and asl he address hismelf as "tam" ? Okay he is so .. how should i say? lets put it this way, he`s being very ... rendah diri? yups2 he sounds like one. Kay im refering to one of Irsyadee's member. hehs. I'm a fan of them kans? Okay ruler bengkok i 've read it.
ZZZ.zzzz.ZZZZ.zzzz gtg
haiz .
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Sesungguhnyer the fan that`s right infront of me is super the irritating hokay!!!
aku cinta kamu. aku sayang kamu.
chey mcm paham. to who ehk? hehe.
Okay so today i woke up. i played with Kiki`s PSP. Star wars! Haiyahh! then i was having my Brunch. (breakfast + lunch). Tengah makan best2 i heard mewing sound outside. i was like "anita!" i called for dayah she opened the door and the cat came in. Finally my little baby came back! mish2 you. I played with anita the whole day. I was bored. What do you expect. i carried the cat which i never did before. besides Mdm reh`s cat.
Tadi tuition i was like super the lazy and penat. Thank god im the tutor :)) hehs. Or else...
Semalam nurul came! yes! finally i have something to talk about. Italked to nurul then she became a bookworm, she read some books. I turned my attention to fir. brr.. heh. Hp baru nmpk. Guess what we talked about? NASYID! fav topic gue. serious. me and fir we always talk about Nasyid,soccer.songs, skinnies, nasyid, s_____g, nasyid, BGR, nasyid. hehe. i listened to Harmonise nyanyi which he recorded. sedap!!!!!! Btw, Harmonise is his nasyid grp yang perform during his school nyer maulid. Dorang nyanyi Hasbi rabbi kan? kan? kan? ntah.. thats what he told me. Go fir!!!!
Uncle jamal caught me la sey. Cos of my phone. I save this particular hambe Allah name as my .... and he called. Uncle jamal was like "qah,qah. saper tu call? jgn buat pape ehk" something like that lah. i was like okay. serams lah sey. i came from a conservative background. What do you expect? tapi....
Saturday, March 21 ♥
hehe. I was just looking at Sheeq`s friendster. Zaki came in and he was like "ya allah!" His reactions made me laugh cos it sounded like i was watching some tak senonoh stuff. Padahal, gambar kak sedare die sendiri.
I couldn't sleep last night. I can't close my eyes. After i ended the call with adik, i cried. I don't know why. why ehk? I miss someone. I miss my exbesty. I miss you. Urgh! Someone dari school tu. Well, he`s in poly now. Ex-besty ku; Nuraisah. You- random someone.
Dah lamer tak nampak jogger! gagaga. Its always kak Wida yang nampak. TAK FAIR!
Have your own personality.
I think im going back to where i came from. Metal,khayal and head banging. Who cares whether i tend to forget dunie dan akhirat when i listened to that kind of song. It gave me somekind of strength and peace listening to metal and stuff.
Semalam around 0045 i was in nenek`s room listening to radio then the hair at the back of my neck stands lah sey. serams. Then i heard swishing sound out of the window. i looked out of the window, tak nampak pon. Im "dirty."
why waste your time saying "ily" when you don't mean it? Why waste 30 secds of your life texting just to say "imy" when that missing feeling aint there? why lie when the fact that you dont even love? why lie when you love but you deny? why lose it whe you can have it? why can't you stand by me when i was there for you most of my life? Didnt i make you cry? didnt i make you smile? didnt i make you feel like we are meant to be together?
aper yang aku mepek nie? why ku type seperti aku nie sedang bercinte??? takde mase uh! i would rather have crush than love.
lust? love? Muhd Saiful Azrin scolded me for saying that. I miss you teddy bear. kawanku. ajer.
Have you ever thought to yourself if you didn't get the chance to know someone you love?your hero? your god siblings? your ...? whatever it is. What would your life be like? Why do we meet someone special ehk? Why of all friends we have, why only one we love the most? why get to know that special someone when in the end heart break is all we get?
sorry banyak songeh. Ini yang adik ku suke. post panjang.
btw, in on of nurul`s photo, there`s a particular pic that got me guessing. her hand, wani`s n me hand. with our watches on. and it tagged "kengangan" kenangan cos of something or her purple watch ehk? ade lah cite nyer kan? its kinda obvious now.
Seriously, i do miss him sooo much. That looked when i first saw him kat masjid.. brrr...
Friday, March 20 ♥
i made a msitake. The biggest mistake. I made someone love me. mad about me. Can't live without me. But, i don't feel the same way at all towards that someone. Haiz. What am i suppose to do? Continue? Or just out with the truth? Which i don't think i have the guts to do so. For real. I can't stop humming Obsession cos he`s super obsessed with me which i find it cool at first. But now, scary.
i've nothing much to update. Oh yeah. When i get to know adik`s granny passed away, someone`s nenek came to mind. Bulan`s granny and irfan came to mind. I kinda miss Bulan`s granny. I remember i visited her in the hospital when Nurul Amira went away for a holiday to KL if im not wrong.
Can't wait for april 6th.
CAN'T WAIT FOR THE END OF THE YEAR.
Can't wait for ... will i ever get to cover up everything before the truth is out? haiz...
fast foward...
dah pukol 10. i'm still waiting for something. Ive no idea what.
Imiss ex yusoffians. Especially 5n2. adore them the most. and a couple of peeps from 5n1. a handful of them. Azrin, wak gondol, Faliq... ( hmm handful benarrrr) Nuraisah may be? Wallahuallam.
i ahve very itchy hands. even when talking on the phone, my hands just cant stop writting or tapping... beh smlm i was talking to adik on the phone. tau tak aper i tules?
F= Fina adikku.. I=I love you! N=N i always do. A= Always be my adik!
Mepek kan? tawu.. hehe. kaylah. burung dah bising. got to go.
i love you dik!
Thursday, March 19 ♥
wee!! Okay im updating my blog and watching Tali pocong perawan at the same time. Ya Allah! Tak boleh angs! Hehe. FooYoh!
Semalam kan.. I dreamt about adik and her brother. Abg dier simpan vid ... in his laptop. Paisey sey. Then i dreamt about Syahmi. Of all ex yusoffians, why him? I don't know him that much. Accept the fact that his a year younger than me and soccer player. besides that, he`s kinda cute. This aint the first time though. Off all Yusoffians i know, he's the only one that appeared the most in my dreams. And we always end up ... I don't know what it means. but yeah. Whatever!
Tute and hantu burung. Well... hehe. i loooove you,dik! I know my malay is horrible.
Bagai aur dan tebing. aur and tebing is the elephant`s tusk and trunk kan??
having a very bad cold these days. System`s down! even "it's" not regular. Haish!
hari tu. somewhere around this week, i was talking on the phone with adik. she was crying and she just can't stop. beh she asked me 3 question. okay no one has ever asked me that 3 qn over the phone. of cos all of me answer is yes. (always okay dik?) her voice. ya allah! kesian sey. then i terend call cos i was smsing syafiq. beh adik msg. i was like "alalala.." i was sedih,happy,kesian all jumble up into one. tak boleh tahan.
Thursday, March 12 ♥
okay. nari 2nd day update blog gue.
Tadi kekek. i was talking to adik on the phone. She was suppose to have her shower and get ready for school but she was still doing her chores. and we were talking. MACAM2. ader uh yang kite orang bobal kan. suker sey dier towards the end of the convo. ader uh. hehe.
Ini norish kan, irritating to the max tau! mentang2 e learning tak yah go school blajar from home, take advantage sey. "recess" braper jam ntah dier gi.. Hw berlambak. orang yang buat kan. im too free to layan her sometimes. ini dier msn ngan kawan dier, i reply kan. buat fitnah jer pasal stead2 nie sumer.
aku sayang adik ku lah sey.. ouh ya..gue rindu budak wak tanjong tu..rindu sangat2.
Fir! u tinggi giler sey. macam galah. Nurul u dah...! Nazrin! congrats dapat SP (aeronautical engineering)!!! and zaki...U dah berubah. suare u.. ahh!!!!fir pon samer!!! serak sey...nak pelok korang! Imiss you all. WANI! all the best for your Nlevel tao!!!!
Norish..jangan main dng stapler lah sayang...
Wednesday, March 11 ♥
i can't stop laughing whenever i think about it. Before SETgal called, a friend of mine called
kwn : u, bunyi aper tu yang bising? me : ade band kat bwh. kwn : band aper? me : ST12. fav u.
i was refering to the PCM (pancaragam ciner mampos) under block. ader ciner mampos kat bawah. dier ktawer non stop smpi dier end call. kurang asam tak ini anak? geram seh!!! ish!
i cant stop singing hot and cold. Hafiz punyer pasal lah nie.
Lagu right round-flo rida,you are so gay n i kissed a girl-katy perry,songs from Oasis (fav indie band ku!) cant stop humming to all the songs!
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hehe. tal boleh angs ah. im blogging and sms-ing someone at the same time. Batal air wudhu ku. paham2 je.
okay. dah lame tak update. malas. tapi ade orang tu dah tanyer, so i update. Lots of things happened. Yeah can't wait for my dip. this August! Yihah! nak go school. One year break, is more than enough for me. Then after that i wanna go Aust! Told mama. She says okay. Yessa!!!
About my driving licence. Im such a lazy ass. Im so lazy sey to go for the whole BTT thingy. Whatever shit you called it. Give it a miss sampai papa marah. oopsie. Of course ah, papa yang paid fr it. I know, pampered! whatever ah ehk.
Im just so ha-ha-ppy SETgal is back. hehe saaaaaaaaaaaaaayaaaaaaaaaaaaang dier lots. andd lots and lots. and lots tau dik!!!! dik..aku pinta...okay mepek. stop it.
hari tu nyer class bbq. Best! Nurul ImaNemo! i miss you lah! okay i miss all of you. Nasib baik orang tu takde. Ahmad! i heard you injured yourself eh?? kesian. Fiq! i love your body lah! With his bike. Ahh!!! aku naknaik!!! buleh? buleh tak? hehe.. I miss ImaNemo calling me brother bear. Then Mal played the guitar. Always be my baby. aper lagy, gue pun join ah!!! hehe.
"Serenade me a love song love song a bout us. eventhough our relationship doesn`t last long, but the memory will last.
hole me tite. hold me close to you. keep me within you. your heart is where i wanna be"
28th march. I wrote the first para, and he wrote the 2nd. memories. i aint promiscuous.
