lost
Wednesday, March 29 ♥
sumtyms in lyf u have to b fucking unlucky.Sumtyms u just wish dat the moment u wake up n the first person u wanna see is the person u luv.but fer me, the first person i saw was him. yeah dat guy who change my lyf n totally change my point of view towards guys dis days. hmm...just bare wif it. Monday school kinda sucky though. Told aisah bout my prob dats bugging me all the way frm hm to sch. Tuesday!yay! parade rehearsal.thank god dat i dun hev to command anymore...but of cos deres sumting dat will make me angry. My gals!! urgh...getting on my nerve!feel lyk asking them t pump in the middle of the parade square.They fergot bout wad i tld them last friday is it?15 is not enuff fer u guys?how bout 30?will dat b enuff to make u guys realize dat u guys slack alot.No sense of urgency at all.guess talk to u guys nicely n giving u guys chances to realize ur mistake wont make any different. WEDNESDAY...hmmm...totally boring day.well sort of...except fer the fact dat im not having probs wif IMAN ,SHI MIN N NOVIA....except fer u aisha...pls talk to me.pls dun stop talking to me just bcos of him...urgh!!its driving me insane.During m.t. lesson disturb aisha fer almost two periods.luv disturbing her especially when she went ballistic...muahahahxx.Mdm yahidah said dat i have to sit beside aisha cos aisha needs me in mly...hmm...my mly kinda sucks thou'.Nvm frens are suppose to be there fer each other when they are in need.it was cat one just now afternoon.pretty heavy. The sec ones went fer their orientation camp just now morn. haixx...boring...Sabrina shes not online,Ain shes not online. Miss Mr. Darren Tan.Gonna miss his teaching. BUT! fer dis week only he`s not here.
Feel lyk breaking down n cry when i heard dat song on the radio.i miss HIM alot. I wanna meet him. The last tym i met him was lyk last yr! still waiting fer his late nyt call just to wish me gd nyt...miss u alot. ure mine...only mine...Everybody`s the same...
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FER A REASON.
lonely me...
Sunday, March 26 ♥
i really dunnoe wads gg on ryt now...in school,my Classmates kinda sucks.wads wif aisha?she didnt want to talk to all ncc cadets in this school just becos of her ex?dats so fucking patethic!lyk urgh!!im suffering!i need to talk to her...i mean shes my closest fren in class,and shes one of the few i talk to when i hev probs.wanna ask the rest,sum are bz wif their own luv life,sum dun understand the situation im in n sum just dun bother.Well nk harapkn my frens outside class,they are ok but i guess its better to trust my classmates then school mates sumtyms.but there are a few school mates dat i trust alot...Aisha,Azrin,Nurul Amira n...i guess dats bout it.but of cos deres owaes one particular person dat u trust the most ryt?yeah u noe wad i mean~my Best Friend...sumtyms she gave me one of the stupidest advice but its funny to hear.And sumtyms she gave me the best advice.shes lyk my advisor..advising me wad to do and wad NOT to do lyk...dun wanna say it.she will tell me off if im wrong.dats the best part...luv her fer doing dat to me.
N at home...i guess no ones at home sutyms...except fer my bro.everyday my parents reached home arnd 1 to 2 am in the morn.when they reach home im already asleep.the nxt day i wake up,is lyk i own the house,nobodys awake!the house is ol dark.The whole of last week, didnt get to talk to my mom.xcept my dad...fer sum stupid reason,i get to talk to him.then my bro?He`s so FREAKle minded..irritating berok...
at home n sch also the same lah...everybody is lyk a stranger to me...ader guy also lyk as if im single...duhh of cos hes nt frm yi...so hard to meet him...miss u syg
i am me
Saturday, March 25 ♥
today was kinda ok...early in the morng he msged me..just to say gd morng.Then she msged...had a lil talk...den off i went to my gradma`s place.saw naz,daniel,syaz,hakim n the rest of the hotties n the babes at my grandma`s place.The babes n the hotties are too hot fer me to resisit...then naz msged my BEST FRIEND!!gatal...damn it he trespass my hp just to get her number...watch out naz.u thought i was sleeping just now ryt?ure wrong dear boi...play wid dayah wif my sotmach still hurting..damn painful.daniel told me my face was all pale n i look sick...DUHH~ i was sick.den i took a rest on my grandma`s bed.everybody was crowding arnd me when they said dat as if i was gg to die.Mcm tgh Nazak.smth lyk dat.Then i msg aisah again...sick still can msg her.haiz...suker seh naz when he get to msg her...been longing to msg her.kesian naz...
Then i went home myself.dun wanna go home wif my cuzzies.Sombong seh me...den talk to rose.Miss her alot!!!and i mean alot.but didnt get to talk dat long lyk we used to cos shes gg offline.we miss all thos crazy tyms.i Reckon dat we have lotsa shits to catch up..feel lyk i wanna meet her one of dis days n hev a lil talk.i miss my BEST FRIEND alot.its so hard to talk my Best fren dis few days.haiz..aper lah naseb.nvm...must pass my chem test...it was kinda ez thou'.Cant wait fer the annual parade rehearsal.i wanna release my stress by shouting as loud as i can when i command.i feel lyk im being loved again....WEEEE~.Atiqah`s mad!Atiqah`s insane!Atiqah`s in luv!! [a & h]
a new chapter has begun
Friday, March 24 ♥
Finally i can breathe easy...Sumone i least expected came into my lyf...a new chapter has begun...a new me...HE asked me to be his...and of cos i said "yes".I tot love sucks...i tot i cant find love again after me n fik broke up last mth.No one can love me lyk HIM.HE gave me the luv dat i need all this while.fill up the hole in my heart.24th march 2006....7.30 pm...a day to rmbr...such a nice guy...HAIZZZ.....
Ncc kinda sucks just now...wad happen to the part Bs man?they slack alot!No sense of urgency at all...Part As?freaking rude!!can Talk back at me....the best is still my Part Cs...today is lyk so boring..miss the fun i used to hev...ouh god im having a very bad sore throat.the Part As are death or wad?i command dem damn loud but still they cant hear me...wads wif dem?They are not up to my standard at all.If ma`am aisha`s here,i think one by one wanna quit ncc...
diss week is lyk so the *toot*.Quarell almost everyday.the only day i didnt had a quarell is on thursday...dats the only day im ok...but wadever it is,HIS mine!!!da dude frm ncc...Syg,i rindukan you...be mine...
second thoughts
Friday, March 17 ♥
" mane ade..U jgn ckp mcm gitu..I will always be your best fren..It nvr crossed my mind to let go of you.Ur stuck in my life already..."I hope u really mean it when u say dis...
i hate second thoughts!!Second thoughts made me change my thoughts.frm hate to love...things dat i dun wanna do,turn out to be the things dat i hev to do.it irritates me alot.when sumone says sumthing dat dat sumone mean it,ill be happy.but when i hev my second thoughts,it made me think negatively.And when i think negatively,my mind ran wild.Iwish i could be wif dat sumone forever.never wanting to let go of dat sumone.but all this *tooting* thoughts made me think dat we will nt last long.The more i think bout it,the more i hate it.Of coz i dun hate dat sumone lahs....While thinking bout dat sumone,the stupid radio will fer sure play dat sumone`s fav song.be it Run It,Mr Brightside,So Sick n more!Lyk, must they play it now?haiz...Im clueless!!i need u now god!Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku....
Wednesday, March 15 ♥
finally its a school holiday...ncc camp...first day totally sucks...its lyk everything they blame on me.Fine i noe im the oic fer the camp...But wads done can nvr be undone...so take it as lesson learnt.second day of camp,feel kinda relieved!fifi`s back.my second ic.thank god.ouh yeha.i got my results back.feel ok bout it.damn i can pass my comb humans but my Social Studies marks bring me down.my eng...if i pull my socks,i can pass my eng by N lvl.N my maths,a lil bit of effort,i can pass already!!!But the one subject dat im kinda curious/happy/proud n weird is my mly.I get a2 fer dat sub.The sub which i dun really fancy the sub which i didnt pay attention most of the tym during lesson.theres subject dat i luv n subject that i hate.And of cos i hate one sub the most.N I MEAN HATE TO THE CORE!!!feel lyk droppin out.dun gif a damn bout dat subject....but how cum i can pass dat subject?if she pass me becos she gave me face,i still dun gif it a damn...haix...wadever lahx...Den just now when i chill out wif nurul at the playground,i saw dis cute n hensom guy.but hes younger than me!too bad!!seriously hes damn cute n hensom...when i chill out wif nurul just now,i guess she noes the real me!i told her evrything bout my past...ive yet to do my homework...i think i better get going wif my homework....i miss dat sumone to the max....haix...help me!!!
Friday...sucks!!!
Sunday, March 5 ♥
Friday...a deadful one.I didnt get wad i want.lets recall wad happen last friday...nvm i can nvr recall wad i did or wad happened last friday.but theres a couple or things dat i remember.a couple of satisfying compliment made by my frens bout my specs..."atiqah u look lyk sumone frm 4e1 wif ur specs on.u look STUDIOUS"ouh fer goodness sake....kembangs gue..haiz...ncc!hate it.got lecture by ma`am sia.all becos of the three bitches.becos of their attendance. i really dun mind getting lectured,but getting the whole part Ds pumped by ma`am wif my stomach still hurting,dat totally sucks.and becos of dat,i didnt get to participate in the MUSTER PARADE AND LAST FRIDAY IS THE LAST MUSTER PARADE FER THE PART Ds before we step down.but theres one thing dat can put my mind off abt the whole pumping thingy~when i get to noe dat im the oic fer the part b camp.after ncc was the best thing dat could happen to me last friday.the stars so beautiful....
Darling,u dun have to feel guitly or bad bout wad happen last friday afternoon.accidents happen anywhere n any tym.its my fault aite.shouldnt have walk behind you.one impt lesson learnt fer me....
forget bout me
Thursday, March 2 ♥
eh sial uh...he thought dat i wants him back!fer goodness sake...NO!nvr in my lyf i want ray back...im happy fer them both *ray n shithead*.unlyk one of his ex...*slash back at u man!FREAK...im not slashing back at u ray...but ur exs.Urgh didnt saw ehem in sch the whole day...very the boring seh..ouh yeah btw sumones giving up on me!!yihah..i guess hes waiting fer my answer.went to sch wif rudy today.such a nice guy...ouh yeah another thing...my MLY ORAL!!!cool!luv it...kinda easy.of cos it will b ez fer those hu luvs mly n fer those hu scores A1 fer their mly.Cikgu Ishak said "bacaan awak bagus..."kembangs!!!didnt expect him to say dat.cos i did a couple of stupid mistakes.No mood to study in school fer the whole day.Chem lesson was fun but i was not in a mood to laugh.Fir keep on disturbing those peeps hu went to the denitist...then when it was his turn to the dentist,we all hit him back...hit it hard.HEY lesson was brilliant.Ifwat n Iqmal played the guitar.Then Adam sang More than words...wow didnt realize our class is full of hidden talents.damn it...lucky me during Dnt lesson mdm hamidah was not in a bad mood.heard dat she kicked the chair at jeremy 4c...sumthing lyk dat.i was not in the mood to do any of her work and i think she realize dat cos im the only one without the drawing paper on my table except my foolscap.My mobile phone almost got confiscated by mr lawrence tan just now.damn...thank god he didnt say a werd,just a smile on his face.shit man tmr 2 periods of english..nvm.english is nutting lahzzz...i wonder when can i wear my number 4 again?fer three weeks in a row i wear my number 3 fer my ncc.and im always the odd one out wearing number 3.haiz...theres muster parade tmrw.hate it!!
dis post is so not me.....
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