Wednesday, March 28 ♥
Didnt update blog fot the past few weeks. Life`s sucks. It seems that im having problem with the ones that i love dearly in my heart. The one that i care the most. Everything`s not right. But nevermind. We`ll continue about this whole thing again aites?
Sports day..(yeah i know its almost a week since taht speical event happend)
I turned out nightmarish and sucky for me.
Firstly, with them. Secondly with adik. You guys should know why. All i could do is stood there with my jaws dropped and looked on with despair...Is that really adik who really fainted at the middle of the track? Ok.. For once i had to talk to him.. Took a cab with him to NUH. Yeah wan, let them think what they want about us. Even Mrs Lew who saw us walking together gave us the weird look. Banyak songeh lah kau wan. On our way there,his mom called..kuat sak his mom talked to him on the phone. "kau kat mane? Balik kau skarang! Mak dan ayah kau kat rumah."
Huahuahua..omg! u should look at his face expression. As soon as we reached there, i saw a man talking to adik`s mom. I thought it was some bangla workers from the nearby construction site. But it turn out to be adik`s dad. Ooopsie..wrong person. Wan left us after that.
Class..
Attendance..haish. Had a huge argument/conflict (whatever u call it) with the gals in my class. Well except for aisha. Like durh! It was partly my fault. If what i did was wrong and what u did was right, tell me...
Ouh yeah back about my loved ones thingy...Hmm..it`s playing games with me. One moment they made me feel like im incloud nine. The next moment, they kinda dissapoint me withh the things thats going around. Maybe im putting too much hope on them. ARE THEY LYING? I just want the TRUTH...Tell me something and make me sigh with a relief. Is that too much ask? I hope not..I need my loved ones around me..
Monday, March 12 ♥
Ok..Actually Nurul Amira, the guy, jerk or whatever it is that i post in my blog all these while was your God-brother, Wan..You don`t have to ask your sister next time. Just ask me. Now that i`ve come clean with you, you don`t have to think about it.
Malay bengkel was SUPPOSEDLY to be ok and kinda fun. But becos he sat behind me, we both kinda get into a quarrell. A quarrell which i find it very irritating.Wanna know what that arse say? let me show you the real side of MD. RIDZUAN BIN ZAMRI OF 4N1...
He sat at the row behind mine and a few chairs away before mine. I was happy cos he was far from me. Then don`t know why, that arse asked his fren to move in.and he end up sitting behind me. Haish. dah duduk behind me is one thing. All the while he was talking crap. Bebual merepek nak mampos! Tak masok akal. Tak logic! I gave him one sweet for the sake of keeping his big mouth shut.But it didnt work. I turned back and look down and the next thing he say " aper tengok2?" "eh pasal uh aku nak tengok belakang! fuck! butoh!" Who wants to look at him? Kalau perangai baik takper uh! His attitude Sucks! Then it was our break. Orang dah bagos2 duduk diam2 and ate my food Then he said something about me. I act as if i didn hear him. Let him talk alone. After the break, he cant keep his mouth shut sey the whole time. Ok, he did keep his mouth shut for awhile. Then, he start talking non stop.I got so fed up. Very irritating..Dah call me label and say something bad, tau minta orang gule2. Gi berak lah wan! " diam uh aku tak kasih kau pasal kau keruang ajar cari pasal bodoh!" And he said i lokek. whatever lah.Then he called nurul iman. I whispered to her something after she layan his crap.Even nurul iman said she just layan him. Tau2 si dektu cari pasal. Alamak! i feel like punching him at that very moment.I was so fucked up with that guy. In the first place, why is he there? some Nlvl malay students also attend the workshop. Sibok jer! kalau dgr tak pe la..tapi buat bising. Aku tak layan uh budak mcm gini. Dah keruang ajar ngan aku, lepas tu minta aku gule2..kau fikir style kaper?? Whatever lah wan. Grow up lah. stop using others just to get to know others. Merepek bodoh kau. Cari pasal ngan orang tak tentu pasal. Tau2 marah orang. whatever. Grow up! Jangan nak step hansem jer. Muke kalau hansem tapi perangai macam sial, keruang ajar, buat aper????
After the bengkel, went to Aisah`s place. stayed there until 2.45 then went to LOT1 to buy Akashah`s bdae present. Her bdae party was quite fun. Lots of laughter..Then after the party, went to IMM and bought ome Tees at I.P ZONE...And home sweet home.
i MISS you dear...I miss YOU lots...Muax!
Today suck big time!
Wednesday, March 7 ♥
hmm..i had to rush to school today. Besty reached school around 6.50...I dont feel good when others have to wait for me. School was nothing much. Sec 2 moved to the front..It wasnt that bad. But the sec 4s..haiz..mcm mane nak cope ehk? Haish..When back to class for Reading period..Then Dnt. Mdm Hamidah was not in school..just like i guess it..Didnt bring my Folio today. Lazy. Im left with ideation after all. Ten weird ideas..I only came up with three weird ideas. 7 more to go. Hope by this week im done with it. Me, firay and maszlee kinda "skip" Dnt lesson and instead with sit and chit chat with Fahmy and Arshad. English lesson with the 5N1s at the ava room. Bising uh 5n2..Hish..MT! i think today is the only day i enjoy her lesson. Then she dismissed us for recess. But i was held back. She realize that i change. The bubbly me just vanished without a trace..Talked to her about the beast. And she said whe will make a police report if this thing goes on. I did shed a bit of tears. A bit only..After that im ok. Atleast there`s someone who cares about me besides besty and besty`s mom! Thanks! she gave me a hug..aww..
Went to study corner for my recess. Meet afi then faliq call..kene jumpe Mrs wan.. haish..Mdm reh was there too..Its about her. yeah.. Its her again... When they talk about putting pressure on her, i was like wth! i didnt even talk to her in the first place. Ok! fine! the conference was like, putting the blame on us for no reason. They didnt hear our side. Ala... even if they hear our side, i think they still wanna back up her. Like what besty said. Hmm..haiyah.. Nvm.. Im kinda cool with it. Leave it in their hands. Since Mdm reh promised that the money will be paid and stuff. But in the first place, why must mdm reh make the promise? Not her? why? why she cant stand on her on is it? afraid dat you are gonna break another promise? Haish.. Never mind forget it... Until now, i`ll put the blame on me myself.. Shouldnt have went back to esplanade. I`ll remember the date...19 OCTOBER 2006..
The conference last aboout an hour? yeah..somewhere around there. Besty,Aisha and i went to the canteen toilet. We were not that satisfied. Then i walk up to the G.O. again and spill the beans out. Everything...And i can see how dissapinted Mdm Reh was and so was Mrs Wan. Face look so innocent during the conference. But behind those looks, you will never know. She look so guilty. So scared. But when we talk to her nicely, she gave us the whatever look.. *sigh* Trying to hide those " guilty" look of yours behind your fringe? Hmm..whatever it is, lets wait and see the outcome. Should have asked besty to say NO! in the first place when she wants to use it. Crap! its all in the past. Cant turn back time.. but to learn from it instead. Say no...
After school, me and aisha went bonkers. sang baa baa black sheep loudly. Well, any nursery songs that was on our mind. Then besty came. Haha.. that was when the fun begins. WE went crazier than ever before. Well, we act as if nothing happened today. Hack care about everything. Yeah! just forget about it..The only way out..Had a scrumptuos meal at KFC...hehe...Sometimes your body and mind deserve something better after a hard day in school..hehe..
Monday, March 5 ♥
Im gonna hate that particular lesson as days passed by..I swear im gonna hate that lesson. That lesson was ok larh actually. But the sight of SOMEONE entered malay class just now spoilt half of my day in school. Well not until recess ended. The moment he stepped out of the class, i said the word "fuck" loudly. Just to get that that person`s attention so that he knew that im referring it to him. At last! i get a better partner for my malay period. Yes! ahmad`s the person...Been looking for a partner for the pass few days. And u made the right decision Cikgu Azizah. Thanks! Greatly appreciate it.Ahmad will be a great help indeed.. no regrets...
Geography..dont know why Mrs Goh been scolding us for the pass few lessons. Is it because of the homework? Ahakz..im one of them..Didnt hand in her homework. Gosh! Hey! but i did score well for the homework i did aite? Well,technically...hehes..Im not satisfy with my Comb. Humans results. I get 59.5 for CH...Thats pathetic aite? 0.5 marks more to get B4... Haish was very upset for my results..Should have done better for my SS test. I failed one of my SS test. and it`s by 1/2 mark! maybe thats how i lose my half mark for overall. Hey even aisha scored better than me! hmmph! darn..
Recess with best friend and Aisha.. Semuer bawak bekal dunie akhirat. Except for me. My assistant brought it from home for me. Thanks! hehe...it`s delicious. After recess was Math.. the only lesson that ive been looking forward since last Friday. That was pretty long..I have to endure 2 days. Yes! i pass my math! 57.7..ok that wasnt impressive enough..Maybe for me yes. hmm.. almost. Well i could have scored better if i pass my Common test which i fail by three marks..
Hmm..i fail my DnT..That`s for sure...Ahaks..i can never do well for my Dnt...even if i pass, cukop makan jer larh..
On our way home, saw that butoh..Jalan macam berok. Jalan macam pregnant lady.. Well, thats what she said also..
I can only laugh infront of the computer when i read it. Now then u know how i feel. After all these while, i thought u are a robot to feel and understand how i feel. Only Allah knows how i feel.Alhamdullilah..
But im still not satisfied..Praise him like u worship him. Love him like you cant love anyone else. I realize who i am after all. Aku hanya lah perhiasan di hatimu. Perhiasan yang tidak berguna. Engkau hanya menggunakan aku apabila aku diperlu. Hey! im a puppet right? Dont u think so? I`ll never believe you when it comes to me. Ive had enough lies from you. Keep it to yourself. Lie! lie! and more lies from you. -whatever-
I`ll just go on with life. Well, whats pass is passed. Now i dont care about u. I only know u exist. But i dont know whats going on between us. Ill never take notice of it. Im nothing in your god damn bloody life.
There`s simply too many Human beings that i hate in YI..
There are lots of hatred everywhere...
Sunday, March 4 ♥
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YqGqPTNrFwA
Hahaha..u guys have to watch this..LOL!
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This week sucks! Especially during MT lesson. I really wanna pass my mid yr olvl and get out..Even if i didnt score that well, and i have to retake my olvl at year end, i want her out of the mt class. I do! I want peace. For once. While i was doing my presentation, some stupid sickening moron was freaking arse rude! laughing and giggling..Hey! im standing there all alone and there u are laughing and giggling like im performing some kind of circus thingy. Klakar kaper? Wheres ur basic manners? Do u guys mind at least to give ur 50% attention? At least? Hais...Korang nie kan, tak ade adab langsung. Keruang ajar!
At home, everything seems to fall apart. Im 17 dis yr and can u treat me like a young adult? Can you? Stop calling me just because im home late and question me like im a criminal. I hate that kind of attention. Yes, i i know im staying over at your place but that doesnt mean u have to treat me like im one of your kids. They are not even 12.so you can treat them like young kids. But im 17 dis yr. U treat me like as if im im 13? Hais.. i know what im doing. Im just waiting for that hideous beast to report for his camp. Cant wait to have his hair shaved n be somebody else. Be independent! Even mom says that u are nt independent. Haish..When will it end? Im bored.. cant wait fro the Hols..I hope it will better..Well, atleast. I`M NOT MAKING A BIG DEAL THE FACT THAT IM 17 THIS YEAR...
Just cant keep my mind off about some ass in sec 4..Its bugging me. I wish i can do something about it. The sec 1s..forever behaving like primary school kids.. Mengarot! Sec 2s..hmm..Sec 3s no comment..Urgh! Yikes!
Omg i just watch kelis-lil star video clip and she looked so different..ahaks..im bored larh..I wanna go to that bdae party..
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